My problem actually has a name: Atelophobia!
Atelophobia is an intense, irrational fear of imperfection and defects. People impacted by this phobia may strive for absolute perfection in everything they do.
Fear that they are not doing everything “right”, or that they will make some error in their daily routines unless they check and recheck. Many phobias stem from a fear of being imperfect. Many individuals are unduly concerned with what others think of them and hence develop a phobia of imperfection. Feeling of not being perfect or meeting everybody elses standards.
Atelophobia is an intense, irrational fear of imperfection.Now I know!